Christmas is finally here~
This year there is no party as my elder sis is busy with her newborn QiQi and no one wants to take over the organising job =(
Since 21st Dec, Work has been chaotic. 2 staff left the company in the beginning of Dec, The most senior staff [Alvin] tendered his resignation and is having ORD mood. In-Charge[Cynthia] is on leave for a week. A department of 5 is now left with only ME. -With same amount of workload, same volumn of sales.
Every morning since 8am, calls & email enquiries are constantly flooding my brain.
While busying working on a urgent quotation, i am also answering phone calls + planning delivery schedule + Checking stock status from all my agent + taking new sales + chasing my customer for outstanding bad debts.
I can feel my mental system deteching itself from my physical body system. My fingers are keying on the keyboard w/o waiting for instructions from my mind. There is totally no time for me to have a break, not even for a cigarette break/ toilet break.
Today is X'mas eve, i am in my office~ weeping at 8.30am. Ming passed by and saw me in tears. It had never happened in history that i cry on X'mas festival, unless the tears is from being overjoyed. It is just too much for me to take. And life isn't just about work. There is really nothing to cheer about this year. Haizz
''I cry alone so they don't know how hurtful their words were to me''
''They cut like a knife, so deep and wide. They don't care, they refuse to see.''
''My feelings don't seem to matter at all. I'm treated better by a complete stranger''
''I just need your understanding, not judge, condemn, or get angered.''
